I do have an absurdist mindset.

Clarification: when I say I'll always prioritize myself and my own interests over others, I don't mean it in a "hurting, manipulating or damaging others" way. I mean it in a self-assured, independent, individualistic, chill, relaxed, having clear boundaries with others, not letting myself be manipulated or exploited, not serving others, going my own way, and "minding my own business" way.